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A Theatre Guy's Life
Below are the 24 most recent journal entries.
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2006.05.12 23.07
I still have to use LJ...life woes
I have things to say that I can't say on my website. So I finished building AndrewHartman.com but my blog there is basically available to my entire family since my mother discovered I bought it and sent it out to our family in a letter asking for money for me. Yeah...I had to write a letter to all my family and friends because this summer is going to cost me $4,000!!!
Anyway, I'm still going to have to use LiveJournal to say the things I don't want my family to read. Here goes...
I've FINALLY figured out all my travel arrangements and it's CRAZY. Here's how it goes: Dropped off at Raleigh-Durham Airport > Taxi from La Guardia to wherever I'm staying > in NY for two weeks > taxi to Penn Station > train to Pittsfield, MA > get picked up and driven to Williamstown > there til August 17 > get driven to train station in Pittsfield > train to Springfield, MA > taxi to airport in Hartford > fly home to RDU > get driven back to college next day.
...yeah...
I'm SOOO excited about the summer. It's a headache right now trying to figure out things I'll need, how I'll get there, where the money is going to come from, and all that jazz. Once I get there, though, everything will be cool.
I really wanted to act this summer, though. I would have had a bunch of opportunities but alas.
I was cast as Francis Nurse in the Crucible. I'm OK with it, but I am ***NOT*** OK with some other casting. I think a couple other people don't deserve parts they were given based on how they auditioned and that sucks that they got the part over others who auditioned for the role better.
I have goals this summer. I am getting in shape. At Williamstown, I have access to their gym. I am going every single day. No exceptions. I purchased a bunch of clothes today and got some pant sizes that were slightly a couple inches tight - on purpose. I will work off inches to fit into those jeans. And if I don't I will be wearing tight clothing this summer.
I went to Bryan & Jenni's last week in Wilson. WOW. Wilson, North Carolina. A nice place to visit....but THERE'S NO WAY IN HELL I'D EVER LIVE THERE. No offense to those two, that's what they know. But I know the city. I know the suburbs. That's where I belong.
Saw Wesley in SEUSSICAL. I was generally impressed with it. It's the first time I saw a non-professional production of the show. They did some parts differently that I thought were pretty innovative. I'm hoping to get to MD to see Derek in Seussical as well.
THE PRODUCERS comes out on DVD Tuesday. And the Tony nominations are announced then, too. Next week is going to be amazing.
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2006.04.08 15.42
CARAZEE!!
So last night was the cast party and that was fun. New favorite drink: Bacardi Raspberry. Lipham had two seizures and collapsed hard to the floor. What sucks even worse is that no one noticed really. Crazy.
Went back to our room and got Papa John's with Bryan, Jenni, Jessica, Ashley, and Amanda. Ashley got really sick. Had to walk her back to her room. Crazy.
We rearranged our room today. Latimer is gonna come back and see new hair colors and a new room. Crazy.
One kid came to audition for the GC Theatre dept. today. I know David and especially Robin were pissed. Crazy.
Crazy. Crazy. Crazy.
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2006.04.07 11.12
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
WHY DO I HAVE TO SPELL THINGS OUT FOR PEOPLE????
I was ready. I was just about to post an extremely long entry about how I feel and how no one cares that I feel they way because I DON'T EVEN THINK THEY FUCKING REALIZE IT!!!! Which sucks extreme balls!! They don't CARE enough to realize it.
I don't want to be the one who just spills it all out there. I want people to CARE enough to come to me and ask me what's wrong.
And next year is going to be scary...who knows what's going to happen but I have two guesses, and it's probably going to be my first guess. Why? BECAUSE OF MY SHITTY LIFE FROM PA!!
I don't know what bothers me most. Myself, my friends here in Gboro, or my life from PA. It's not fucking fair. I AM A GOOD PERSON, DAMNIT!!
For the first time in several years, I had those suicidial thoughts again. And if anyone actually cares to read my LiveJournal, don't worry. I'm 99% sure I'd never kill myself. I used to think I was better off dead. I almost attempted suicide in middle school, but talked myself out of it. Oh God, here comes the tears. Just know that I won't ever attempt suicide. I just think sometimes that if I were dead I wouldn't have to live with the pain.
I hate to publicly say this...but this is what I see and how I feel. Jessica bitches about Micah...hour long convo on why she should dump him. Jessica breaks up with Micah...hour long venting convo. Ashley breaks up with Latimer...hours of time repairing it. Alec gets job Justin wants...two hour long convo about venting and other shit. The convo Bryan and Jenni had about Jenni. The initial convo in the beginning of the year between Bryan and Latimer about someone. I could go on and on and on and on...and none of this stuff except for one thing was as important as my issue. People are either blind or don't care.
It sucks that I have to use LiveJournal to say how I feel. Why? Cause no one else cares to hear it. Thank you, LiveJournal, for being there for me.
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2006.04.06 17.52
Thinking Of You
I'm sorry, buddy, that you have to live with this. It sucks. And I'm proud of you for not letting it take control of your life, but instead pushing through. It's strange for us, because we are not used to it and when it happens we feel like it is taking control of you. And I don't know what's worse for you - your being embarassed that this thing takes control of you or the actual illness.
You're loved by all, Lat, and it'll be OK. Push through. You're a good kid and were meant for amazing things.
It's going to be scary at times. We have to support each other.
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2006.04.06 00.44
I Hope It's Over
The first years met tonight to get it all out and hopefully resolve all their conflicts. It is affecting them as individuals, as friends, as actors, and others. Today we couldn't have a focused rehearsal because my actors couldn't let go of drama. Which happens and is fine, I got accomplished what I wanted to do. I just wish it was more productive.
Bryan seems phased getting back from the freshmen meeting. Apparently they all sworn each other to secretcy, which is fine, I just want it all to be over and for everyone to get along now. But I don't think they all can keep it a secret. It is going to get out to someone and it'll get to everyone. But if they all want to keep it to themselves and they actually do it - props to them and mad respect. The impression I am getting from Bryan, however, is negative. Uh oh... Tomorrow will be interesting.
The department meeting today was again dramatic. Not in a bad way but in a productive way. I think everything is happening for the better.
I'm really anxious to know next year's season and calendar. I'm really anxious to get to New York for Springboard!! BROADWAY, BABY! The Williamstown Theatre Festival also called me about a publicity internship. I will only accept a position if I get paid. And if I get a gig in NC Theatre's WIZARD OF OZ, then I won't do Williamstown.
And I keep forgetting to tell David that I don't want to do Publicity next year. I can't remember if I told him weeks ago or not, but he needs to be reminded anyway. I'm an actor and I don't want to have to worry about TV spots or posters or press releases or getting butts in seats. We will have more management students next year, make them do it and make them do it better.
I want to watch RENT again for some reason. Perhaps I'll do it tomorrow. But I have an Origins project to work with Jenni on! DAMN IT! Tomorrow is going to be interesting...
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2006.04.05 09.39
I dunno...
I dunno...I think people are blind. We'll see what happens. I felt very uneasy and unassured. Something's fishy. But whatever. If it doesn't come out by the end of the semester, it'll be forgotten over the summer.
I can seriously graduate next year very easily. CRAZY!! The scary part...I am seriously considering it.
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2006.04.04 19.36
Drama Drama Drama
Everyone just STOP! Enough! Mind your business, take care of yourself, take care of your friends if they need it, and don't pay mind to anyone else. If you are curious as to why someone is feeling a certain way...go ask them yourselves. Don't ask another person. Something passed from Friend A to Friend B told to Friend B's friend told to Friend B's friend's roommate told to an associate or whatever is not going to be the same thing as what Friend A says. Did that last sentence make sense? Of course not...gossip never makes sense to the person it is about.
People are going to talk shit about other people. That can't be helped. Just tell people you trust and be done with it. Go to those people who are your friends and leave it at that.
This is such a small department, you guys. News can travel fast. Everyone knows everyone and if something is going on with someone, everyone is going to be curious.
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2006.04.04 17.43
Roundtable Feedback
Damn. This roundtable was very responsive. There was a lot to say and half the things I wanted to shout out were stated by David and Robin. I'm glad they are getting on everyone's cases about it. As usual, things sort of got ugly.
1) You NEED to warm up. If you don't think it helps you, talk to David and Robin about it. It helps on so many levels. The fact that in Acting class some of my fellow Sophomores stated that they were upset when no one warmed up MADE ME LAUGH. I went to the guys dressing room for the high school matinee show on Friday and said I'm going to the rehearsal studio for a group warm-up if anyone wants to join. I then went to the women's dressing room and told them I was going to the rehearsal studio to for a group warm-up. I then preceded to the rehearsal studio and waited five minutes. NOT ONE person showed up! So I began...then Shannon showed up and she joined me in the Zuosha Ladder. That's it. Me and Shannon - that's the group warm up. Every night before the show, I would go in the studio and improv dance to "Gloria" and also do other warm-ups. The only people I EVER saw in the studio were Frances, Shannon, and Owen. That's it. No one else warmed up unless it was a Robin-directed group session. If you are in the GC Theatre Department and are reading this, know that when you graduate, Robin isn't going with you. You HAVE TO BE SELF-SUFFICIENT.
2) Respect your peers, even if you don't like them. Especially if they have a "power" in the show, such as stage manager or dance captain or assistant stage manager or even assistant fight choreographer. If a tiff happens, step up and be the person to solve the problem in a positive way. Never walk away from the issue...stay until it is resolved or agree to resolve it at a later time. Don't focus on making the other person feel bad...the show isn't about ego. Just do what you can to make the show - that's it.
3) Don't talk about personal lives backstage. This includes relationship issues, academic stress, beefs with friends or other actors, etc. Backstage, you are your character. On stage, you are your character. Keep that mentality and you'll be surprised what it does to your acting. This doesn't mean you have to be a psycho. Just don't distract others. Keep your focus on the show.
P.S.: My comment about this at roundtable was directed to every single person in the room - it wasn't meant to be for a specific person because I had already talked to that person.
4) Show up on time. Especially that Andrew Hartman kid. He always tends to be 5 minutes late. ;-) But this is something we all had an issue with, even our director and stage manager!
5) People have stated this and last year that "roundtable solves nothing." I disagree. People may see immediate things - that it only causes or prolongs drama, fights happen, people are uncomfortable, everything said is bullshit, etc. While some of this is true, I see roundtable as ultimately a good thing, especially in the long run. A) People get things off their chest and don't repress it; B) People say things in an opportunity for everyone to hear - they are being heard - and this is an amazing opportunity to say something; C) Roundtable is especially beneficial to say FOR YOU what went right and what went wrong in the structure of the process. What can tech/management do in the future to better help YOU and the show; D) It's a nice way to "end" the show. Roundtable is just good for psychological and departmental reasons.
More later...
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2006.03.30 17.27
The First Years...
The Freshmen/First Years are really stressed right now. A bunch of personal, social, academic, and theatre related issues. I can't wait until next year. Toward the second half of the next semester, they will all enter into a new place. And those who do not enter this new place will likely leave the department...they aren't meant to take this journey. And only one, I think, will end up leaving.
I'm especially anxious for Bryan, Latimer, Sara, and Ashley to do Meisner. Well, Jenni and Owen, too. OMG! And Lauren!! Ohh, and then there is Amanda...is Derek taking Acting III? Honestly, I don't think Meisner will help Derek right now. He needs to take Acting II first. But Meisner will just make Bryan and Latimer and Ashley better actors, will help Sara lose herself in order to find herself, will make Owen come completely out of his shell, and will make Lauren just take a giant leap step forward into a new realm of acting. I think Lauren will have the most difficulty with it, but will do fine.
Ohhh, I know who I am forgetting. Stephanie Wood. Honestly, I don't know how Meisner will affect Stephanie or Amanda. That'll be a fun surprise.
But DAMN! To think of all the improved talent us Juniors and Seniors will have to work with!! I can't wait!
In Acting today Karl took a step up the actor ladder. Finally - good for him! I have been ready to do my classical dramatic for three classes now. They are going to be shocked. It will be my best work so far at Greensboro College - better than my work in any show or class.
This is just so damn exiciting. Everyone is becoming better actors. We are all stressed right now, but it will pass. It is the end of the semester. Nothing to worry about after Midsummer except final one-day department things, final scenes & monologues, and exams. No more mainstage shows. No more lengthy homework assignments. No more stress. It's time to pack up, take everything you've learned this year, and move on.
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2006.03.29 11.59
"Yesterday was plain awful..."
You can say that again!
So I made 2-3 LJ entries last night. And I still have more to say about yesterday.
So vocal rep is over and I go to Acting class. It was pretty good. Everything was ready to present their classical comedic. Everyone had their classical dramatic memorized. It was going GREAT! We talked about Midsummer and everyone get very constructive feedback. Andy wasn't there. I don't think Missy was there. Maybe one other person wasn't there?
Anyway, the final thing we do is work on a person's classical dramatic monologue: Karl. I'm sorry, but it was awful. Robin was asking him questions, questions that might as well been directed at me. Karl and I share a similar past, I guess. But he is a fucking moron. HE COULDN'T ANSWER THE QUESTIONS! He kept saying how he would change the monologue. IT IS NOT ABOUT THE MONOLOGUE!! IT IS ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE SAYING AND WHY YOU ARE SAYING IT!! I have the same exact thing to tell in my monologue, it's SOOO simple!! I seriously think there is something wrong with that boy. Mentally. I think he is slightly mentally retarded. We all know he is a slooooow thinker and it takes him forever to spit out whatever he is saying. But I mean, COME ON! For something that relates PERSONALLY to YOU! and something that has had such a profound impact on your life, you couldn't answer a SIMPLE QUESTION!
I cried. It was so pitiful. It was me up there on stage except I knew what to say. I was balling in my seat. Maureen noticed. I think she thought I was crying because of the stressful day it has been, with the TV spots and all. Nope. But you'll see why next Acting class.
Speaking of TV spots, I got them on video from Colby and they CUT "APRIL COME SHE WILL"!! The reporter told me there was an audio glitch and they cut away early, but they didn't air it AT ALL!
I am kind of liking this LiveJournal thing. I wouldn't say this shit to anyone except maybe six people in the department, but they are so wrapped up in themselves or other things that I never get an opportunity nor a chance to vent about my shit. No one ever wants to listen to me. Thank you, LiveJournal, for being there for me.
P.S.: God, I need a girlfriend.
Mood:  lonely
Music: Not in the mood for showtunes today...
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2006.03.28 11.57
Vocal Rep
I sang "I Don't Care Much" from CABARET. Everyone applauded loudly. They liked it. Then Jackie had me be "mad." It "sounded" stronger and better.
While I agree, I wanted to ACT THE SONG not have it be an "audition" presentation. But I did both. Whatever.
Now to memorize a monologue for an acting class I have in an hour.
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2006.03.28 09.13
Headaches - TV Spot
So I got up at 4:00 a.m. for our television spots on FOX8. I knew all along I had to plan out the whole thing, but Robin didn't want to seem to get any of it done. So I got it done but the actors and tech didn't know about ANYTHING because I couldn't confirm with Robin. The Techs got the list the night before and so did most of the actors.
Anyway, it is 5:30 a.m. and the fairies are still not done. Now it is 5:45. Now 5:55 and all the fairies finally get to the stage. We do the first spot and now everyone knows how it is run. The Techs and actors are relaxing more. I am not.
We get to the second spot which is the Swordfight. This was probably the most smooth - no real working or tweaking needed.
BY THE WAY - MAD PROPS to Justin for stepping in and working on the acting. Justin ran the acting, I ran what needed to be done (sound cues, tech stuff, stopping and starting, involving the reporter, etc.).
ALSO - note that Robin - OUR DIRECTOR - is not here yet. We already did two spots. WHOOPS! We now did three spots. She finally arrived before the fourth spot was about to air. She was very embarassed, but everything was under control. So she didn't panic. She was just very embarassed.
So everything went fine. Just fine. It all worked out beautifully. Robin comes up to me after the whole shabang and said that it was probably the most smoothest, well thought out, best TV spot coverage we had for a GC show. Damn! This after she says the night before, in front of everything, that we DON'T need to rehearse TV spots!? Whatever. It is the night before the show opens. Everyone is batty, including me.
All this being said, NEVER AGAIN. I hated having to take charge. I hated telling my peers - my friends - what to do. It was just awkward. But everyone listened and there were no displayed qualms. Still - NEVER AGAIN. I am an ACTOR, DAMNIT! This should not be my responsibility. I don't need this stress. Everyone else had to be there at 5 a.m. and go on TV. I had to run and get in costume, do my hair, then run upstairs and get the Tech situated, then get the actors on stage for rehearsal, then check in with the news reporter and camera man, then rehearse the segment, then check with Kristin at the Sound Booth, then do the spots, then rehearse the next segment...repeat repeat repeat repeat...repeat for five segments plus three teasers. DAMN.
And now, I am an actor again. I have Directing class in 30 minutes (after I finally shower!) then Vocal Rep then Acting Class then Play Production (not my day, but I have to work on them), then our FINAL final dress rehearsal, then SLEEEEEEEEEEP before an 8:30 Movement class and a 9:30 Ballroom dancing class then academic classes then my Scene rehearsal then Play Production (my day) then dinner then the show and then SLEEEEEP!!
No more. No more publicity for me. That's it. I'm done. I'm glad to have supported our shows but now it is someone else's turn to step up.
P.S.: I feel bad that Liz Bokhoven, who is part of Publicity, doesn't get more credit. Granted, I do more of the work, and she knows that, but I wish she would want to get more involved because I think she feels left out. But our schedules just don't match. It's awkward. She'd help if she could. Ah well. It doesn't matter anymore. Just one more dance event to promote then we're done.
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2006.03.26 22.27
The Same...Must Change
Same story. Nothing new. It's not gonna change. Maybe not til the summer.
I'm in my room watching a bootleg of DREAMGIRLS. The film adaptation comes out in December. I have a friend associated with the film. I am assured it is going to be as good as CHICAGO. I believe it. I can't wait.
Working on my TOT book. It is going to come in handy earlier than expected - this summer when I am at SPRINGBOARDNYC!!! I've already done a lot of work on it over the semester, on things I didn't even know were going to be in it. I feel ahead and it's awesome.
My only regret is I am going to be in debt. Springboard is going to cost under $2000 plus I have to pay for transportation and food. Then I have to buy headshots before I go. I hope I don't need to go out and get a "real" job.
Looks like we are only getting one freshman male actor here next year. That's gonna be weird - we'll see how that goes.
I can't wait to see what our season is going to be next year. I am READY for next year to begin! I want to prepare for my audition for the shows, I want to develop my acting more, I want to be closer to graduation, I want to meet new people, I am ready for change. An opportune time for CHANGE.
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2006.03.25 12.53
Screw It
The greatest thing happens to me then more shit happens. I went from Cloud Nine to Sub Zero. What the fuck!
I can never be happy. Others won't let me be happy. And I don't think they even know they're doing it.
I am alone.
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2006.03.24 18.40
SPRINGBOARD CALLED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SpringboardNYC called me today and left me a message saying that I have been accepted and that they will call again on Monday morning to further discuss my application. OH MY GOD!! I AM SOOOO HAPPY!! This is the best thing that's happened to me since who knows when! I am on FUCKING CLOUD NINE!!
Tonight I just want to lay back and enjoy some peace and quiet and watch a movie (perhaps a bootleg!) and enjoy my euphoria. Tomorrow is que-to-que with an 8:45 call. Gonna bring my laptop, headphones, pillow, and blanket. It was such a weird crappy day until I checked my phone messages. Now to go watch some Broadway!
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2006.03.24 01.00
Today Was Amazing!
Yesterday, I didn't want Ashley & Amanda to work after Midsummer. It's just not a good time and they need time for everything we work on to sink in. I'm glad we did 2:30 instead of 11:00. This worked out great...read on and you'll see why!
So I got up today and intentionally didn't go to Directing class because I had to memorize a monologue for Acting and also work on another monologue. I told David this and said sorry for missing his class and he said "Good." Ohhh, that David Schram. He is amazing.
Then we had Scene presentations. I won't publicly say anything that is specific. I'll say that I was pleased with what happened. They got stuff they didn't get in rehearsal and missed stuff we did work on. But PRETTY DAMN GOOD for only having really rehearsed twice. Bryan and Ashley's scene was amazing. Bryan is going to be one of GC's best actors. Ashley really shocked me. Once she gets over her "isms" (which she'll discover in Acting III) she'll be just as amazing, I think.
It's upsetting that some actors in that class didn't have the opportunity to do good work. Either because of the director or the other actor. But again, I won't be specific.
Anyway, so that ran late and Acting class was starting in 5 minutes so I had no time to eat. Class was amazing. Andy did good work. I can't wait to complete my TOT book. I have half of it done already.
I think it sucks Robin and David still think I might switch to the "dark" side of Education/Directing/Management. Fuck that. Acting III was the deciding factor for me. There is nothing else. Only acting.
So then I grabbed dinner at 4:50 and went to Odell at 5:30 for rehearsal. I got out at 8:30 but didn't have homework cuz tomorrow I'm doing Midsummer stuff all day. Wow. This is crazy.
We got the registration stuff for next semester, too. Everything is all planned out. I feel so much better and relaxed. Next semester is gonna be hectic and weird, tho. My Tuesdays and Thursdays will practically be free. And I can graduate as a Junior...technically. WEIRD. And on MW(F), I don't have any classes past 3:30. COULD IT BE POSSIBLE I'LL HAVE "FREE TIME"??? More time for acting. Yay!
NOW ANNOUNCE THE SEASON! SEUSSICAL, PLEASE!
Mood:  ecstatic
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2006.03.20 23.03
I Hate People
So today I find out one of my gay friends has had shit happen to him because he's gay. I learn that three of my friends are closet gays (confirming my suspicions). AND I find out my sister was sexually harrassed at school. WHAT THE FUCK!
My gay friend told me one night he heard someone scream out his window "are you in there, homo?" then shot out one of his window panes with a BB gun. Then last Friday someone knocked on his door at 2am. His roommate answered and someone had placed a trash can tilted against the door. It tipped over and a river of dirty water with piss ruined their carpet. They had to throw it away.
Finding out some of my friends were gay (I thought they were anyway), I would encourage them to come out of the closet. However, I wouldn't want this shit to happen to them. Why can't we live in a world where people can be whoever they are? Whoever they want to be? PEOPLE SUCK.
AND THEN, my mother calls and tells me today that my sister was sexually harrassed at school. She's only in 8th grade!! A kid touched her ass then another kid came behind her and immitated fucking her from behind. A kid found it funny and took a photo of it. Apparently my sister told the teacher what happened and the teacher said to sit down. My parents got involved, the principal got involved, the police got involved, and the students' parents got involved. The end result - the kids were suspended. One of them had been suspended before, too, for bringing a knife to school. Scary. Are they going to want revenge for my sister getting them into trouble? Or learn their lesson? My sister enters high school next year. She better learn to deal with this shit and not accept it. And those kids better not pull that shit again.
PEOPLE SUCK. Maybe that's why I'm such an overly-nice person. To compensate for the losers out there.
Mood:  enraged
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2006.03.18 18.52
"I Am Waiting"
Midsummer is going better than it has been. I'm gradually growing out of this creative block I am in. My personal issues are SLOWLY getting better as well. I felt normal today.
Today, someone who I won't name was telling me that people were reading her LiveJournal then joking about their entries. I'm choosing right now not to add friends to my list or tell people I have a LiveJournal. If you're reading this and want to talk to ME about it, that's fine. But don't talk shit behind my back. Even on this LiveJournal I'm not telling the full story so if you want it, you talk to me about it. Don't assume shit from my semi-vague blog entries.
Found out next year's musical is looking like it is going to be Camelot, Secret Garden, or Once Upon A Mattress. I want to do Seussical. Everyone says "NO, I'D KILL MYSELF IF WE DO SEUSSICAL" but they don't know shit about it. They just hear the name "Seuss" and they think it is a dumb kid's show. Listen to the fucking CD before you even attempt to have an opinion about the show.
Watched MOULIN ROUGE today. Yippee!
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2006.03.16 10.12
"Unhappy. Unhappy. So unhappy. Very very very very very...sad..."
My past is haunting me again. I've never been to a therapist, but I think I should go. Get everything out then just leave. This sucks! It sucks it sucks it sucks! WHY, GOD DAMNIT! And it's not going to change. It's just not. Hopefully things might turn around in grad school. Why can't people like me for who I am? I AM A FUCKING GOOD PERSON. I see people shit on each other all the time and I keep thinking "I would never do that to someone!" Is that what I need to do to be accepted??? SHIT ALL OVER PEOPLE??? Make them feel like crap? Cause drama?
No one seems to care, neither. When other people have problems, there is always a friend they can talk to. It's not that way with me. Never with me.
I have a feeling I am going to regret making a LiveJournal. I'm close to being 100% upfront about my problems, and if I spell it all out in black and white and be specific, the entire GC Theatre Dept. could be reading this and then what'll happen? I don't know, maybe nothing at all or maybe things will change - but I'm scared to death to find out. I've shed enough tears to drown Noah's ark.
Enough about that. I'm going to try and make today a good day. Last night was scary, but things will be all right. He shouldn't be ashamed.
Mood:  depressed
Music: "I'm All Alone" - Spamalot
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2006.03.14 23.41
"I Suck, I Suck, I Suck, I Suck, I Su-uck!"
I'm TRYING to be a better actor but I'm just not getting the chance! I've tried repeatedly to meet with Robin but she is always pre-occupied and busy. How can I move forward and prepare and work if I am at a stump and need some ANSWERS!?
And then in Midsummer rehearsal she made me realize I can expand what I'm doing even more. And then Justin made me realize that I'm not playing moment to moment, which I STRONGLY disagreed with at first because I was paying attention to this the most today. Then he gave a specific example - when I find out I am playing a woman. And I TOTALLY agreed. I think the times I play moment to moment is when I don't have lines. So I'll work on it.
I'll work on it.
I'll work on it.
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2006.03.13 17.54
"Not Me"
Everybody else but me - the story of my life.
Everybody else seems to have a theatre gig for the summer...except for me. And I won't know until April 15!!! about SpringboardNYC and auditions for Wizard of Oz are not until May. As Charlie Brown would say..."Aaaarrrrrrrrggh!
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2006.03.12 14.41
Heeeeeeeeeeere's Andrew!
I finally suckered in and got a MySpace and LiveJournal. Cheers, conformity!
Just got back from the Southeastern Theatre Conference. Boy, was it a joke. I shouldn't have wasted my time with the Job Contact. I want to ACT, damnit!! If I am offered anything, it'll be a last resort.
I will be auditioning for North Carolina Theatre's THE WIZARD OF OZ. They'll need local short people who aren't kids...HEY! THAT'S ME! And I met their producer an management/artist staff so hopefully that'll give me bonus points. If I get it, it'll be my first professional credit and the first step to an equity card.
Also, I'm a finalist to get into the SpringboardNYC actor training program!! It's a one-week extensive intensive actor training program for undergraduates. I have a phone interview sometime this month for it and I'll know by April 11! If I get it, I'll be living on the NYU campus, get to see at least 6 Broadway shows and one off-Broadway show with a Q&A after it, have music, dance, and acting lessons from New York professionals who train Broadway actors, and also master classes from Broadway actors/dancers/choreographers/singers/composers/directors themselves! GOD, I HOPE I GET IT! I HOPE I GET IT! They only accept 20 actors so even though I am a finalist, I'll be damn lucky if I get it.
But anyway, yeah, back to SETC - what should have been a relaxing week was quite stressful, thanks to the drama-mamas and papas of Greensboro College. But it could have been worse. I'm still here.
Back at school. Midsummer starts today. Things should start getting better...
Mood: artistic
Music: Cabaret
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